sorry, not sorry

You’re afraid / To lose it
You’d rather / Destroy it
You really hate / Loving it
You’re gonna have / To retaliate

And I can’t wait to see
How you’re gonna torture me
How long d’you think I’m gonna cry ?


You’re drowning / My fires
I’m boiling / Your waters
If you knew / What I know
Then you’d see / What I saw

And I can’t wait to see
How you’re gonna torture me
How long d’you think I’m gonna smile ?


That’s how your sting became my needle
You’re not handsome but hey
You know that I’ve Always been attracted to voids and you’re always right there to whisper “Jump”
And now you make me drink a little more
Just a little more
Just ’til I Tell you everything
Like all the predators you are FULL OF EMPATHY

Your masochistic twin
Is all I’ve ever been

And maybe we have the same mother
And maybe we have the same mother
And maybe we have the same mother
AND MAYBE WE HAVE THE SAME MOTHER

My dear childhood
So tender and naive
Where are you
All around me is so blank

My dear childhood
Why did I go away from you
I turn into a monster
And I’m crying all my trouble

This lie will be my jail
My religion has fell
Homophobic, mysoginist, fuckin selfish, fuckin racist
Homophobic, mysoginist, fuckin selfish, fuckin racist
I’m losing myself in the hate
I’m losing myself in the hate

Do not blame me
I’m not able to be free
Do not blame me
There’s so much pain around me
I will change
If you put me close to you
I promise I will change
If you put love in my heart

This lie will be my jail
My religion has fell
Homophobic, mysoginist, fuckin selfish, fuckin racist
Homophobic, mysoginist, fuckin selfish, fuckin racist
I’m losing myself in the hate
I’m losing myself in the hate

Give me my fuckin
Give me my fuckin chains

Deep down you know you should leave but you stay
Gritting your teeth a bit more everyday
The ones that you spare
Just cause you don’t dare
Deserve better than
Your untold pain

I don’t care
If you cry
You’re only losing what is mine
And it rains
Down my scars
As I walk through the morning stars

I gave you a lot but I still have a bit
Driving at night with no bag I just split
Feel no bitterness
When I burn that dress

I don’t care
If you cry
As the rain washes down my pride
And it rains
Down my scars
As I walk through the morning stars

I am thirty
I am guilty
I’m so thirsty now

Drown your sorrow
Til tomorrow
Pretend you are virgin

He pierces me all of a sudden
With remorless eyes
He pierces me and I let him in
Til the sunrise

He’ll never take me away with him
He drinks down my soul
I hush, he knows what I mean
The friend I found

I’ve lost my heart but it’s alright
I’m pretty like a desperate cat
And now the birds won’t sing again
Bring back the cage I was born in

I pierced him too and it took a glance
And we both know the deal
He watches over my innocence
Like you’d do with your meal x 3

Would you stand it
If I forgave you
Would you stand it
If I do

I’ve lost my heart but it’s alright
I’m pretty like a desperate cat
And now the birds won’t sing again
Bring back the cage I was born in

La masse horizontale
Peuple un matin pâle
Fais briller tes chaînes
Demain est une chienne

Je suis ton père, ton seigneur
Ton protecteur, ton précepteur
Professeur, proxénète, bienfaiteur, prédateur

Et mes rêves s’enfuient
Après le dernier somnifère
Crois-tu que j’ai choisi
Que ma servitude est volontaire

Je suis un mec responsable, sérieux, solvable
Pour te faire oublier qu’au fond je suis un mec minable
Je suis libertaire j’aime avoir plusieurs partenaires
Mais si c’est toi qui t’amuses
J’appelle ça adultère
Je t’érigerai une prison en forme de forteresse
Et j’en serai le maton sois une salope sois une princesse
Je viole ton territoire c’est pour y faire des remparts
Laisse toi faire, j’ai besoin de ta dépendance

J’échange quatre murs contre ton obéissance
C’est pour ton bien que je cultive des idéaux paternalistes
Je me sens investi d’une mission civilisatrice
Je panique si t’assures ta sécurité
Ma dope ma nourriture
C’est ta culpabilité

Et mes rêves s’enfuient
Après le dernier somnifère
Crois-tu que j’ai choisi
Que ma servitude est volontaire

L’eau n’est stable que si elle stagne

I am not your toy

I can’t help it
Undo all that I’ve ever built
I just can’t stand winning
I just can’t stand winning

Make sure no one is getting to close
Make sure no one is getting to close
Make sure no one is getting to close
Make sure no one is getting to close

I’m not quite sure why
I apologize
I’m not quite sure why
I apologize
I’m not quite sure why
I apologize
I’m not quite sure why
I apologize

I’m not your fucking toy

Wait until your leave me

He falls
Like a broken doll
He falls

He falls
Too much drug in his veins
He falls

He falls
Too much pressure
He falls
Too much pressure
Pressure

Take a needle forget the world around
One suffering to heal the pain
Take a needle forget the world around
One suffering to heal the pain

He falls
Like a broken doll
He falls

He falls
Too much sadness inside him
He falls

He falls
Too much pressure
He falls
Too much pressure
Pressure

Take a needle forget the world around
One suffering to heal the pain
Take a needle forget the world around
One suffering to heal the pain

He falls
Too much pressure
He falls
Too much pressure
Pressure

La la la la

You’re just a fucking doll
D’you think you have control
You’re just a fucking ghost
I don’t trust you

Hear me, trust me
Hear me, follow me
You’ll never catch my soul
Stop trying
You’ll never catch my soul
Stop and go

You’re just a fucking doll
D’you think you have control
You’re just a fucking ghost
I don’t trust you

He’s dark
Like a night of winter
He’s warm
Like a bloody fever
The only boy
I’ve ever found
Handsome
He’s handsome like
He’s handsome like a girl

Grisha
If you’re not mine

He’s pale
Like a dusky flower
He’s cold
Like the arctic silence

The only boy
I’ve ever found
Handsome
He’s handsome like
He’s handsome like a girl

Grisha
If you’re not mine

John and Mary first than Luke and Paul
Down the white womb sleep under the waterfall
Float, baby blues, heaven thub
I swear you won’t shed a single drop of blood

Mummy she tried, but mummy she can’t
You run around me and my head aches
Still no meaning
Still no one’s helping
But Jimmy said that Jesus saves kids

I used to be gifted once
Straightforward girls are nice

Mummy’s kind of mad, children dive
I think it’s time now, honey drive
The plan is all screwed up, no more weep
Let’s abort it all and leave the ship

Mummy tried, but mummy can’t
You run around me and my head aches
I crave for some meaning
No one’s helping
But Jimmy said that Jesus saves kids

I used to be gifted once
Straightforward girls are always nice